Friday, May 23, 2008

putting down my shovel



Reading "The Relentless Tenderness of Jesus" by Brennan Manning right now. I've heard a lot about his work, and some friends have raved about his "Ragamuffin Gospel"... but, I've actually never read anything by him until now. I'm only on chapter one, but im so much enjoying his perspective. Several things have caught my eye and made me pause to process. The intro alone sucked me in, and had me laughing at God's providence in me choosing this book:


"My journey has taken me recently into the desert. It's hot and I'm thirsty. But all I've been able to see is burning sand stretching out all the way to the horizon. With no water in sight, thirst had nearly given way to resignation. I've been trying to call all of this 'trust'. I've been here before. There's a pattern. When I put down my shovel, when I quit trying to figure out what I must do to find water, a well seems to bubble up.. I can sense resignaion yielding to renewed thirst, and hope." (Dr. Larry Crabb)

Umm.. HELLO? Brennan, have you been reading my journal?!?!?!?!?!

Life seems off balance and looks nothing like I expected. The road I saw didn't curve this way and my plan looked nothing like the reality of my today. I'm weary of figuring out why.
Oh for a heart of reckless abandonment, a mind of obedience, and a spirit of joy that would freely let go and trust Him with everything!
I'm choosing to take my eyes off the never ending horizon and put them on the Father of never-ending faithfulness.

There's bound to be signs of life and wells of water just ahead...

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